In 2024 I was diagnosed with long covid after two years of struggling with any diagnosis that could explain my symptoms. I was okay with this until I was not and flirted with depression. Thankfully I had a lot of help and did not spiral downward. Still, it's hard. It's not the life I had in mind but it is the life I have now. I am attempting to heal, to deal with the changes and what they mean. One day at a time, one week at a time, I learn who I am redefined in part by an illness that took so much of who I defined myself by away from me.
Each week, I write a little. Those are snippets of life as a I adjust or simply, more appropriately, just snippets of life. Words on a screen, sometimes with images too as I seek to find photography again, and probably too much earnestness and longing.
The posts are:
- 08/10/25 - The last one
- 24/09/25 - Drafted never completed
- 17/09/25 - Unwritten
- 10/09/25 - I forget to write
- 03/09/25 - Summer wanes
- 27/08/25 - Back to books
- 20/08/25 - The cricket pitch
- 14/08/25 - The things we keep
- 06/08/25 - Written but never published
- 30/07/25 - Brain fog
- 23/07/25 - I forget... again
- 16/07/25 - The heat
- 10/07/25 - A shift on the desk
- 02/07/25 - A swim and a cake
- 25/06/25 - Turn of the year
- 18/06/25 - Sitting in the park
- 11/06/25 - I bleed
- 05/06/25 - My anxiety returns
- 28/05/25 - Falling again, falling still
- 21/05/25 - Drowsy
- 14/05/25 - A visit to the arboretum
- 07/05/25 - Reset
- 30/04/25 - Oh yeah... asthma
- 23/04/25 - The possibility of healing
- 16/04/25 - Nothing much
- 10/04/25 - Breaking the rule
- 02/04/25 - All the little things
- 26/03/25 - Ilness and water
- 23/03/25 - Travels to France
- 12/03/25 - Too much
- 05/03/25 - Small things
- 26/02/25 - Together
- 19/02/25 - Rest days
- 12/02/25 - I am okay
- 05/02/25 - Food and cooking
- 29/01/25 - Unearthing the camera
- 22/01/25 - Hormones
- 15/01/25 - Tree and future cycles
- 08/01/25 - Back to the lake
- 01/01/25 - Time out of time
- 25/12/24 - Out with a cold
- 18/12/24 - Cyclists and great tit
- 11/12/24 - Birthday
- 04/12/24 - Friends
- 27/11/24 - Sofa and TV
- 20/11/24 - Snow